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I am stalled at page 330 on finishing the magic kingdom book
which is nearly the end
but this book is
bad.

there is one character in it.
he is a bit rubbish.

he is also King because money says so.

Everyone around him only exists to provide exposition or go Oh No Don't and then he do.
They have days and days of travel but it keeps saying they don't talk.
Can you imagine, just days and days of not getting to know each other because they're treating it like zoning out on the bus home.

This is not an author who thus far has a firm grasp on how long a day is, is all.

Make him write a 45 minute script based on this lot and it would cover the whole story and be Dire.

The naked lady has no motivation except Fate and Belonging To Him.

I keep being distracted by imagining any other set of characters walking into this world, and the basic problem is they would tear through the paper thin flats of the backdrop and NPCs without even trying.
Any fandom's blorbos are better realised characters than this and to make the world fill in to their level would take writing so so much of it.




This book is inspiring.
If something this flat can get published I'm not all that bad.
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I started rereading Terry Brooks
Magic Kingdom For Sale Sold
and immediately discovered I have retained very little of this and am now finding it *very* annoying.

I think the only women with words so far are receptionists, and I am over 150 pages in.

I keep stopping and staring into space for a bit thinking
okay but if even one woman was in the room right now and able to speak
this would be a very different story.

Also: I am not buying this guy as a lawyer, corporate or otherwise. Read more... )

Basically he's a lawyer as an alignment, to go with the Paladin.

I and my tiny legal knowledge want to throw a collective of lawyers at this setup just to see how MANY spanners could be hiding in the works that this story has no interest in.



The story as written is being very boring so far. I can only buy the idea this man thinks he can buy a Kingdom and save it if I also think he's a really annoying kind of a person. It's not ideal.



But it is reminding me why I have a collection of books where the appeal is
a woman is in this book and she gets to talk and everything.
Their reread value is less than their first read value at the time, but I am recalling why they were an improvement.




ETA: page 167, there is now a woman in this story.
this is not an improvement.
she arrives naked and announces she belongs to the protagonist.

Honestly at this point I'm only going to finish reading it because I know I've read the whole series before. It has to get better than that.
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I had been reserving judgement on the Buffy reboot until it actually existed because before that all is rumour
but apparently it is back to Not Existing
so apparently now I have thoughts.

The thing with Buffy is:

We need a theme.
- It has to be a socially conscious theme.
One that reflects the students' growing awareness of...
...and involvement in the world around them.


That's the movie talking about naming the school dance, but compare any given season of Buffy.
We grow up, we notice new and stabbier problems, we realise we are the ones meant to deal with this, however unfair that seems.

And you get that pretty smoothly in the high school seasons, culminating with the theme and practice of Graduation Day.

But there are people who are less impressed with the development of the characters after that.

I read in a screenwriting book that you have to bear in mind that the vast majority of your viewers went to school, but only a majority of the writers room went to college.

The way society is set up for the past few generations we have this unifying experience of sitting in rooms where everyone has to be, being told a bunch of stuff that's meant to get us ready for the world outside school, with varying degrees of success.

But after that everyone's experience fragments, and the viewers reactions cannot be relied upon to come from a similar point of view.

Which, yeah but no but. A, could they ever? And B, Buffy did not spend overly much time in a classroom.

The core shared experience of the characters was
we have all this compulsory stuff to deal with that we're being told endlessly is Super Important
but now there are Things
which are actual life and death important
yet must be dealt with after and around school.

You can build out a lot of experiences from there. Like season six and the quest for more money. There is compulsory stuff, and now, also, Trauma. You somehow have to juggle both.

But part of what makes that heavy is the way even the closest support systems of the main characters simply do not acknowledge the life and death stuff. The trivial and transitory is compulsory, the being attacked by vampires is somehow not a problem anyone needed to prepare you for or admit is happening.

Relatable!

... no really, there is a very light metaphor skin on so much that is super relatable there.

And a lot of that is being prepared for the wrong things the wrong way. There's so much pressure on You, Yes You, Personally, Alone, doing things perfectly right first time Or Else End Of The World.
... exams must lead to the perfect start or life is wrecked forever, etc.

And this is all wrapped up in Patriarchy and how the Important tasks are *somehow* not the ones that Someone needs to do every single day or everyone dies. Home Ec is not a high status set of lessons despite the fact they're actual baseline essentials. You are not expected to make bank by doing the things that keep other people alive. Someone has to clean, cook, care, patrol every night, and hey, look who it is again.

Watchers get paid, Slayers get Called. Patriarchy at its finest, core to the metaphor.

(Making it Patrol, defense safety violence and therefore traditionally gendered and valued differently, is part of the defamiliarisation that makes Buffy work.)

And who can you go to for help?
Actually varies by season, and to some extent having the help crumble out from under you and growing to replace it is a core mechanic.
Parents, teachers, Watchers, government, all the support systems and institutions do what they can, demonstrate why they left the world the way the youngers find it, and crumble out of the way, while the protagonists grow to fill their roles.

Change that and you change the genre significantly.
Horror believes in the injury but not the hospital, in crime but not policing, in the threats but not defenses.
Coming of age stories see all that and say, our turn now.



So you put together all these constraints and you get the framework that the actual plots and characters build out on. You get Giles being slightly useless because he's an older in a story about growing up, you get schools that purport to help but become the source of threat, you get youngers that have to push back and take over.



So what do you do with all that
twenty years later
when you still have *Buffy* the vampire slayer?


It's easy enough to posit a world that still has vampires, but what does that say about *Buffy*? Yes, that the task is never ending, but also, why is someone still in school being Chosen to step up and help with it?

Buffy ended the show by sharing her power, so everyone that can stand up will stand up. Slayers all.
Equals, and within the framework of the show, as grown up as they are getting.

She went from the new kid in school to the general of an army.

What institutions did she set up after that?

How did they fail?

If they didn't fail, why do we have a plot?



And I think this is a fascinating set of questions, if Gen Z ask Gen X about them.
... I just had to look up the likely generation age ranges and apparently Gen Z are the ones who got born after Buffy started saving the world and are at youngest 14 now, so quite the age range there.

What world did they get born into, how did Buffy fail to fix it, who has she become in response to that, who can the youngers go to for help and Why does that fail in such a way we get plot?


Seems like we could look at the world and mine a rich seam for all of that, even if we focus primarily on gender.
If the text looks in the eye the race problems of the original we start getting proper interesting.


And I personally would start with the core concept of Slayer and the assumption that the ability to stake your problems will ever make them go away, but that's because I look at the genres I prefer to read watch listen to and tend to go But What If Completely A Different Thing.

... diplomatic solutions with non humans would change the baseline metaphor so much. but. So many years of BtVS and Angel presenting vampires and demons as basically people? The stabbing gets problematic.



The problem is all this either shifts Buffy into a different character with a non protagonist status, or leaves you running parallel coming of age and middle age stories. Which would be tricky! But the thing Giles had to reckon with in the background where the institution he gave his life to was... kind of sucktastic, and the person he thought he wanted to be in his early twenties turned out to just leave problems for the next generation, well, that's a start.


I think Buffy restarted right now could be fascinating.

But it could not be the same story. Writing the same story already makes it a different story. You would have to grapple with the differences.
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Thing I want to write about but lack sufficient depth of knowledge:

I have been reading some books that treat Wales and Native Americans as some sort of mystical Other, a fairyland you can visit and notice has a homelessness problem. And it made me think about Torchwood. Because Torchwood isn't doing that.

I have read a Bunch of stories that decide Wales is some kind of mystical theme park, just Other enough to go visit and bring back a bit of magic from. Wales exists to be Mountains with occasional Castle. Also mud. Possibly sheep. There may be a pub. But it is being Iconic and Scenic and not terribly functional.

Torchwood just has the story set in Cardiff, a real functioning city with police and local government and sports events and wheelie bins and people on a night out and just, you know, everything you get in every other city.

Plus aliens, but this is the Whoniverse, so we are real clear by now that all this all is happening in several places, we're just watching the Cardiff team.

A team including Welsh people.

And, yes, an immigrant from outer space with an American accent, but.

Welsh people aren't just the backdrop or the victims or the comedy sidekick, they are the actual protagonists and there to save the world.

(arguments about efficacy and technique are for another time)

The more I read this book that assumes that not only the characters but the reader will identify with white Americans who own their own house and might have met a black person but find Native Americans to be exotic emissaries from a mystic power and or possibly ghosts the more annoyed I get.

And I am aware that there are significant differences between that and visiting Wales
but these books aren't.



But to figure out if it's more than just these two texts to compare contrast and write this up properly I'd need some kind of survey of how Wales was depicted in pre Torchwood media and to read around the topic and actually know what I'm talking about, which, I feel I do not.


It's just winding me up.


And that's without getting on to how some stories treat being descended from. All those ancestors and all that math to figure out how many people you descend from across a thousand years? Oh we'll just be talking about the one of them and being vague and hand wavy.


I have a headache and a grumpy.
New hair is excellent but the going and getting it done is exhausting.

I'll go read some more.
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Unexpected update: tumblr unbroke itself.
Staff undid the update.
Unusual wisdom.
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Tumblr staff broke tumblr
by changing how reblogs and replies and comments and EVERYthing works
and as far as I can figure this may mean
tumblr staff can't see all of the reblogs that tell them they broke tumblr
unless they reblog directly from staff.
which is a level of broke that is Special.

Apparently it breaks blocking and breaks the ability to make things unreblogable.
people are still testing that but it sounds. bad.

tumblr not looking great right now.
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I am rereading Terry Brooks Running with the demon and Kinght of the word, will read third part next, but
so far it is just deeply weird that the argument of the story is you literally need to give up on all social connections and Do More Violence
or you are abandoning god.

Like the main Knight took time off to deal with his PTSD by working for a homelessness charity
and it was literally a plot by the Void.

Someone has Issues and it is not on this occasion me.
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From a certain point of view, since my last entry, I have triumphed over the forces of gravity and geometry and slightly wonky shelving.

From another point of view I am a muppet who knocked a book down behind the book case and, after several not great ideas did not pan out, finally had to empty the shelves and try and lift the whole case out.
Which did not actually work.
So I have retrieved the book by tipping it as far out and forwards as it would deign to go and using the grabby stick.

I think the cover will even go flat again once I leave it under a bunch of other books for a while, which by this point is a best case scenario.
... it's fiiiiine, just believe it is a perfectly ordinary book that you wouldn't personally miss if it did that...

After a quick google, as it turns out, I could get a brand new copy right now for a maximum of Β£11
which next time I may try to search Before all the shenanigans.

... I think possibly I did the thing where I can see the next step to try and lose sight of if I personally at quarter to midnight need to try it.

*sigh*

Is okay, is all done now, bar the refilling...
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Only one load of laundry today, but I also refilled the dishwasher chemistry, ran it with the cleaner bottle, and the loaded it ready to wash when it gets full. Also did regular Cleaner Day.

And made myself feel spinny bad trying to get stuff from the cupboard under the sink. I remember why I gave up on the low cupboards but I keep thinking I'll Just Be A Minute and then I have to have a sit down in the middle of whatever task required Sink Things.

It is a mystery under there. I don't know the half of what is stashed. I mean today I found half a dozen empty plastic bags from laundry tabs and I have no idea when I last was buying that sort.

Still, threw out several things and sorted out others, so, progress was made.



Other than that I didn't read listen watch stuff today. Listen seemed Loud and reading seemed like I wanted to read A Book But Not That One. And I didn't want to write the one I wanted either. So that isn't entirely helpful. But I do have Several book so I shall find A Book eventually.

My laundry is down to only filling the smaller basket, which is grand, but is still filling what I would until recently have considered The Laundry. There's at least two more loads in there, possibly three. This was Maximum Laundry.

I think it's because of all the drill and screw noises lately. It's nice that they've fixed stuff but it's not nice that this is week four of making a bunch of random interval noises about it. Still much quieter than the first two weeks but. I miss quiet quiet.

Quiet quiet theoretically gets more done.


But logically they have to complete the work eventually so.


Not a fascinating day really.

I shall go stare at bookshelves again.
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Loads of laundry done today: 2
Dalek Universe episodes listened to: All of them, and the chatty bit after the last one
Food: delivered successfully

Sunday achieved πŸ˜ŽπŸ––πŸŒž



Dalek Universe is good. Especially when I'm rested enough to listen properly.
Makes me want to rewatch 10, or relisten everything with River.
Ooh, I have River Song set left I think...
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I have rearranged my bookshelves on the principle of
things I actually read go where I can reach
and things I inherited can go behind everything in the back corner.

McGuire, Huff, Bujold, Cherryh and Duane are now on the nice visible shelves next to me.
Other stuff got sort of stirred around and I am not especially confident of finding it again later, so this is a work in progress.

But somehow the book stirring process has made a space on the shelves suitable for putting plural books in.
Which basically never happens.
I am puzzled yet pleased.
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Today I have done two loads of laundry. First one is all put away even. Second one is in the dryer.

The laundry bags/baskets are still full. They started full and they are still full. That is not how geometry is supposed to work.
The newer bag is the gigantic ikea one and it is full even though previously the smaller one was just kind of overfull a bit. Or apparently a lot.
Expanding laundry.

I have also been listening to more Dalek Universe. I think I would like them better if I wasn't tired. But they are quite good.

It is so weird sometimes to realise how long it has been since the TV canon Big Finish is picking up and running with. I mean they are still doing 4th Doctor adventures. But even these 10th Doctor ones are featuring someone from 16 years ago. Entire human beings got invented and grew up since he started.

About twenty years since Torchwood. Seventeenish since Ianto died.

I saw https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/articles/cddnn2rn0v7o Ianto's Shrine is scheduled to come down soon due to the wood and iron under all the pictures and that being all wore out.
I acknowledge that the Shrine existing in the first place is a bit nuts, but it's a cool sort, where we decided a story mattered enough to keep passing it along.
There's a petition https://www.change.org/p/save-ianto-s-shrine but I kind of don't see what else they're going to do about it.
Cool if they could though.

I'd still like to go and see it but since I haven't been more than a half hour walk away from my flat since 2020 that is a bit Maybe I Personally Could Visit The Moon. Only a bit though, it's still there and only taxis and trains away, I'd just have to be a different me to get there.

Like Flux next weekend https://seanharry.com/home/flux/
that looks brilliant and exactly the sort of thing I liked to do when I liked to do things.

My plans for this month instead involve attempting to get my hair cut again. Which involves several challenging parts. But has been achievable goals.

I am a bit frustrated by how small I shrank everything. Tricky to get growing again though.

I shall persevere.

Also, listen more Doctor Who and finish the drying on this laundry.
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After I got so tired yesterday I scheduled today to be Just Resting
but it is still not fun to be tiredness level feelings weeble wobble.

I listened to some more of Big Finish's Dalek Universe. Is okay. I think the ingredients, 10 getting drawn back before the Time War and meeting another Time Lord, are pretty good stuff, but I also think I Am Tired today so Is Okay.

I have been contemplating how to rearrange my bookshelves. There are shelves below bed level that simply never get read, and a lot of authors shelved in weird inaccessible places simply due to alphabetical order. I have forgotten who is down there really. The ideal solution is to move somewhere with enough horizontal space I can get at both sides of the room, or indeed to be a person who doesn't fall out of a single bed so the bed gets thinner, but since neither of those are doable, I contemplate which books to banish below read level.

I think it'll probably be mostly inherited ones. It's not that the classics of science fiction are bad, it's just that I don't think I've read them all even once, and the ones I have read I don't spend much time thinking about. Keeping Huff and Duane and McGuire and Bujold and Cherryh up where I can read them is key, I've reread all of those recently and I still buy their new work. Asimov may just have to deal with the floor height view. But then I feel like that's unfair and I should really reread things I'm sending Below? Just to be sure? But there are so many.

I also moved a bunch of things to make room for the work and that means noticing they exist again, and in some cases wondering why I still have those. But doing anything to not have items is More Work. So at the moment they're all stacked up in unusual places.

I wonder if anywhere still wants VHS tapes.

I'm sorry I'm not very interactive, just, got tired.

With any luck the work with the power tools and testing the fire alarms multiple times a day will be Over and I can sleeps whenever. That'll be nice.
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Today was Difficult because People In My Flat Fixing Things but the things are fixed and I have won.
People are out of my flat. Winning.

I am so tired.

I left my exercise watch counting today as if I was dancing because Difficult but now it thinks I danced for three hours and made a new record.
Clearly I should actually dance for hours in the near future and make a better record.
... the medium future, actually, the near future will involve staying very still and seeing if I can sleep through all the hallway noises this time (unlikely).

... tired tired...

I am going to eat my chocolate thing and feel blergh.
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I spent the day waiting for someone to do a small communicate
and then they did not.

Also Cleaning happened, so that part is nice.

And I played more of Wrath of the Righteous on Hard. It has been going pretty okay but I am running out of healing potions so it is about to go Bad instead. I should go back to Defenders Heart to get more potions but the clock ticks onwards so I may try getting Daeran and hoping.

I think I built my character poorly and that isn't something you get away with on higher difficulty levels.

But I hate the builds you find on websites and the philosophy behind them. So I shall attempt a different way and maybe discover why not to do that.

I continue to want to have different conversations than the game makes available.

But also to doubt that I am interactive enough for an actual game group.

... that leaves fic, obviously. but words.



Not my most fascinating day ever and the rest of the week remains up in the air. Lovely.
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I thought it had gone quiet around here
then I realised Ao3 feeds I follow are just giving errors
and also that I seem to be the only one using them.

... I am way too tired this week to do the thinking on this one but if I write it down I may remember there was a thing to think on.
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I have been reading fanfic this week between the Noisy bits.
... there are a Lot of Noisy Bits.

I keep reading fic where they didn't do it the way I would and this has an obvious solution.
At some point writing could happen.

But's it's stuff like crossovers that keep one half as a guest star who doesn't say much, when it was his fandom tag I was working through. I don't know what I would have Constantine say about Dresden Files but it would be something from his own point of view. We would know where in his canon he was. It would be distinctly relevant, given all the everything.

... also the argument you shouldn't tell a guy he is stories in your universe because he'll get mad at the writers
(which the fic made due to Dresden having read all of Hellblazer but just not dealing with that out loud)
doesn't really hold up because multiverse
(too many canons for one version to live, writers clearly not to blame for the existence of infinite possibility)
and also
https://screenrant.com/constantine-real-life-alan-moore-dc-comics/
https://www.vulture.com/2014/10/secret-history-of-john-constantine.html
of all people, he *knows*.

... I am aware of the logical reasons for the writers seeing a bloke in a trenchcoat, and yet.


I read some Labyrinth fic as well that was going well until it seemed to believe Jareth about Jareth.
*do as I say* / and I will be your slave
is not an offer.

So I would write that whole thing very much a different way up.

But then what is the attraction of it? If I'd only go there to change one character.
Tricky to then make it what anyone in the tag is even looking for.



Constantine and Jareth and Dresden are making me have a think about characters attitudes to women.
And what makes them interesting despite them.

Constantine is left the least problematic these days, pretty much because his canon is most recent (that I have read, I gave up on Dresden with Side Jobs apparently, and stalled on a reread lately on Fool Moon because that was not a point of view I was having fun in)(also I have the TV series but remember it not. Hmm, shouldn't have opinions on Dresden then.).

Reading one Hellblazer writer's attitude to John using up his friends and throwing them away... I mean apart from wondering why he wrote him that way if he didn't like it, I'd say that isn't what the Constantine TV show did, even when it was. They kept him more knife edge, so you could interpret him either way, like he was trying his best or like he was tricking his nearest into things. The ambiguity is part of what makes him compelling I feel. If he lands all good or all bad then he's not really Conjob any more, you know?
But the further away from original cultural context you get then the more it'll land different.
The balance tips without the story changing.

Also, fanfic is written by a different demographic than the original comics, mostly.

Things get spun different or rolled out in a new direction.



I do keep wanting to write the man but I also don't want to color inside the lines, so I have in fact got a new trenchcoat in mind and should give him a name.

Making Constantine a timeline sliding archetype is a big change. You can't get the specificity that way. I have complained before. It leaves problems as individual personal ones because the details of the politics and social conditions get stripped out. But that makes the politics slide in somewhat unexamined instead.

The 2014 TV show did not do well with race. I do not know where I would need to start to do well with race. But it needs doing carefully and consciously or all the horror cliches drag the old racisms along with them.



I have no conclusions yet, to thus post or otherwise.

But I am actually reading, and something that isn't Doctor Who or DC, so thoughts are being generated.

ish.
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I am not enjoying The Noises. too much power tools. I keep expecting something to come through the walls or the floor or, for all I can tell, the ceiling. And nobody tells us stuff like how long this will be going on. boo.


I am enjoying fanfic, though mostly only putside of work hours due to The Noises.

Rec:

The End of This Day's Business (62990 words) by Eleta_Preloc
Chapters: 13/13
Fandom: Star Trek: Deep Space Nine
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Julian Bashir/Elim Garak, Elim Garak/Kelas Parmak, Elim Garak/Cardassia, Julian Bashir & Elim Garak & Kelas Parmak
Characters: Elim Garak, Julian Bashir, Kelas Parmak, Keiko O'Brien, Miles O'Brien, Original Human Character(s), Cardassian Character(s) (Star Trek), Arati Mhevet, Natima Lang
Additional Tags: Post-Canon Cardassia (Star Trek: Deep Space Nine), Cardassian Culture (Star Trek), Cardassian Politics (Star Trek)
Summary:

Well, it's all right even when push comes to shove
Well, it's all right if you got someone to love
Well, it's all right, everything'll work out fine
Well, it's all right, we're going to the end of the line

It’s almost the last day on the job for Castellan Elim Garak. One or two loose threads to tie up and then he can retire home to his books and his garden and his doctors. Surely everything will work out fine?

What might have happened after The Crimson Shadow and Enigma Tales.

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I have been listening to the Big Finish parts of the big multimedia Doctor Who thingy from back in 2020.
... the chatty bits afterwards are all people saying how weird it is recording at home in their little improvised studios and I may have wound myself up a bit about that era. It's so weird everyone being upbeat about the technology and cheerful about needing to call people who could work from home and then just talking about the acting of it all.

https://www.bigfinish.com/releases/v/doctor-who-time-lord-victorious-short-trips-master-thief-lesser-evils-2260
https://www.bigfinish.com/releases/v/doctor-who-time-lord-victorious-he-kills-me-he-kills-me-not-2257
https://www.bigfinish.com/releases/v/doctor-who-time-lord-victorious-the-enemy-of-my-enemy-2258
https://www.bigfinish.com/releases/v/doctor-who-time-lord-victorious-mutually-assured-destruction-2259
https://www.bigfinish.com/releases/v/doctor-who-time-lord-victorious-echoes-of-extinction-2262

are the ones I listened to. they did a skip between enemy of my enemy and mutually assured destruction which the chatty bits insisted works quite well because one ends with setting out to work together and the next begins with everything on fire and you can in fact accurately guess all the context you need from there.

I'm going to listen to this one next https://www.bigfinish.com/releases/v/doctor-who-time-lord-victorious-genetics-of-the-daleks-2354 but I am not doing great at finding all the parts and listening in order so I think that was meant to be listened already.


I like the ambition of a big interlinked story but I mislike the experience of not knowing what is going on so you see the problem. I liked the parts of the story but I do not quite get how to get all the parts. The Big Finish bits work well together and I feel I understand the shape of the set up but. Well. Puzzlement ensues as soon as I zoom out a bit. Big picture is... not.

Which is fine, it's like reading comics crossovers when they never arrive in order and the shop doesn't get all the parts.
... which was never my favourite thing either.

So! I have no complaints about the stories I have got, they were fun to quite good, but the stories I don't got are... trickier.

Enjoyed these, liked hearing the Torchwood audio actors be in different parts, but on the whole prefer to collect All The Things.




(also the power tools in the hall thing was still ongoing today but I listened to the audios mostly successfully anyway, so that was progress. though I look forwards to them being done.)
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Today there are people doing power tool things in the hallway and I am Not Enjoying It.

But necessary Monday tasks got done so all I have to so is stay i the corner furthest from the Noise until they go home.
*xfingers*




I watched a few Legends of Tomorrow episodes this morning but today it was feeling sort of well chewed. I don't usually feel that way about rewatching things but I am kind of feeling that way about Several things at the moment. Think I need a new project, and maybe to watch some of the things off the stack I've never seen yet.

... also to actually go where there are people and interact with humans again at some point. Trickier than rewatching stuff at three in the morning.


Maybe if I start writing and see where it goes...
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I saw someone asserting that x vampire killer can't really be considered a *killer* because in any verse with vampires vampires aren't considered to be people

and a, way to be confidently wrong

but b, if you think really, really hard about it, you might be able to see an angle where that is indeed
the problem.

Read more... )
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Current state of google searching:

AI summary did as requested and compared weight of pathfinder handy haversack and weight of fjallraven backpacks, saying many were lighter and some were heavier, but I still had to go to the fjallraven website and go through each backpack individually before I found the one that weighs the same.

Also the AI has a different answer for how many grams in 5lb than the regular google.

I have seen this thing screw up the maths in so so many ways. So many.

Asking it for two things is ambitious, but I thought it might link to both pages if I asked for two at once. Instead it linked neither and mixed DnD setting wikis and reddit discussions with reviews pages, when the literal rules for this seperate system are on the web and the product listings likewise. And it did so confidently and fluently while telling me the thing I had asked it for did not exist.

... I still don't actually need a real life handy haversack, but the answer was Keb 52 W. Which is about the right size in l too, and available in red.
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Today I dreamed I went in the kitchen and found eggs frying
and John Constantine had turned up in actual person
not solely to make breakfast.

So I dreamed acute embarrassment
as if I had sent a fan letter that somehow convinced him there was an emergency.

I mean he is known for turning up to be seen by his writers, but breakfast would be new.



I also dreamed that Ianto Jones was interviewing new applicants for Torchwood
by booking them all in the same hotel, including him, so he could see what they were like outside the formal interview context
and then there would be test/games.

Only then the Hulk turned up and there was a lot of machine gun fire for real, which was rather out of scope for a first interview, though admittedly a fair view of the actual job.

Jonathan from Buffy tried to resolve the situation by using a love spell on Hulk, because he is known for protecting the one he loves.
Unfortunately it turned out magic users had tried it before, so now Hulk was not only not in love, but *deeply pissed off* with Jonathan in specific and particular, which was not going well.

Honestly the applicant who never emerged from their room and seemed to be playing computer games with the sound turned right up was probably having the most surviveable life.

... until Hulk turned the whole whole hotel into something with a flip lid anyway.



Waking up feeling like you accidentally pulled the fire alarm and now everyone you most respect is outside in their sleepwear seeing you in your lack of sleepwear and they all know why
cannot be recommended actually.

Neither can the knowledge that if actual adventure called I'd have to be just that apologetic about it, given relative abilities etc.



If I was writing it though this would be the beginning and the point of the story would be like those Doctor Who episodes where he meets a bunch of random people on a bus or something and it turns out if they work together even random ordinary people can do great things.

... or it would be Midnight. But John Constantine is actually who you want around for Midnight. So that works out.
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I started replaying Wrath of the Righteous again. I had two saves that weren't really working out on difficulty grounds and I could remember nothing I'd decided about those characters so I deleted them and started again. And then, right after the bit with Lariel, I deleted that and went fast doing the exact same thing but at the difficulty I'd meant to choose when I named the character Hardy. So I am only up to the first door inside the Shield Maze but on Hard so it's slightly progress.

I decided to romance Sosiel this time and then realised if you decide to play a black man and then choose between character portraits with no context there is a one in three chance of looking exactly like his brother. Which seems awkward.
Though this thread
https://www.reddit.com/r/Pathfinder_Kingmaker/comments/14bngye/for_new_players_who_want_to_avoid_stealing_the/
says the game just changes the character portraits to someone else instead. Which I would not have guessed.

I chose the guy with the bow from Kingmaker, a game I really wish worked on xbox but I haven't replayed because of all the crashing. He is a cleric of Erastil and already I am remembering I never quite know what to do with clerics. But it is nice having a bunch of healing already.

... I only had to restart the fight with the earth elementals three times, but that's fiiiiiine, no problem...

I hope they make another Pathfinder game. I have a few things I haven't done in this one but most of what is left are either things it will let you do but I don't want to (Be Evil) or things it won't let you do because narrative arcs and tragedy etc (Redeem Everyone). It's a good satisfying game on multiple replays but I think I could benefit from playing a different game at some point.

... I tried a few where the movement made me motion sick though, and it's really frustrating trying to narrow down what's least likely to do that, so then I just play the good one again.



Although lately I have been mostly chewing on other 'verses. John Constantine in Wrath of the Righteous would lose his memories, lose his guilt and his Deals, his whole context. I was thinking that doesn't work but now I ponder it I can imagine him unfortunately well in an Azata to Devil mode. Trying out Freedom but taking a Deal instead? Story.

... I would like to give him a nicer Story, but, it gets tricky.



I read Magicians fic yesterday, despite not watching Magicians. It was fix it fic of a What If Q Lived variety, but it got there by killing him a lot a lot. Time Loop fic as depression, depression as time loop. Strong stuff.

Made me have a ponder about days being exactly the same until you do something about that.

I do not have any actual Plans to that effect yet, but, I am pondering the limitations of replay.

Kind of a start.


I have no idea when sleep oclock is today since all times are pretty sleepy without actual sleep ensuing.

Also I need to do more laundry but keep on not putting it on because my sleep is backwards and I know I can hear the neighbours machines.


All the stories where you solve problems by hitting them are simpler and more definitive, but mostly only useful for catharsis.

I should play a genre where it's all diplomacy and making friends instead.

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